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So, today was supposed to be fun and exciting and goal-getting, but it kind of hasn’t. Besides getting a bit of a late start (due to stressing), most people seemed to be upset with the expansion so my ideas of hopping on and happily talking away to guild mates about excitement over the expansion information was shot to heck in minutes as my heart shattered but people are still coming anyway

However, one nice thing happened today (plus, I finished my goal page!). Prongs surprised me with some mods πŸ˜€ And he even helped Mar-gon too! Yay! He’s supposed to help me figure out a bit with my healing and if it’d be better to switch down 5% Crit by switching my Magenta Crystal to a Power one and 3 Mettle Mods to Aptitude or to keep what I have now. Looking forward to what he says, although, I’d hate to have to change things again…

Disappointing day

Despite getting on immediately when the servers it up, due to repetitive failure, everything has felt kind of disappointing.

On the verge of tears for various reasons so I think maybe I’ll just go to bed and call it a day. I guess I’ll do more pet stalking tomorrow, but for now, it’s just making me more depressed than usual.

:( / Edit: T~T <3

There is always something awkward when you want to try and avoid your main character as to not run into someone :/

As it is, I will most likely be filling in for NM EC this upcoming Tuesday evening which just stresses me more EDIT: Looks like it’ll be HM EC! Still makes me nervous though πŸ™ Note to self: need all 27 armorings except for legs.

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Edit: Eeeee T~T OMGTHANKYOUPRONGSFORTHETHRONEMOUNT:

YAY. …the skirt is kind of broken though. but still! yay!

but yes, speeders to go: Continue reading

Cartel Item notice

I’ve gotten a few mails and comments about this so I’d just like to point out that this is where you can find my Cartel Market trading list. As for getting there without a direct link, you should actually see it when hovering over the Contact Me Page!

The reason I’m bringing this up is I feel bad when people comment or ask about something that either:
A. Was never going to be for trade
or
B. Is no longer available anyway.

I listed everything I received–even stuff I planned to keep so…

Speaking of Cartel stuff, I’m guessing (again, it’s a guess! They may not update again for another week or 2, but they did say next week in the Q&A) they will be updating tomorrow. I will admit, as much as I hate the packs and stuff, a little part of me is excited. But I do love opening things, especially during the Holiday season πŸ˜€ (Christmas = my favorite holiday!)

And one of my special favoritest (totally a word, shut up) things about December besides snow and Christmas music and the lights and all the other wonderful things about this season because omgyay T~T is the Advent Calendar! I love those things πŸ˜€ (and they keep me going to Neopets every year)

I wonder what it’d be like if SWTOR did an Advent Calendar. A quest a day for December! …now I wish they did @-@ Even if it’d be hectic like the World Events!

Wriggles agrees:

(and yes, I know, no real life holiday stuff…but why can’t Life Day have Advent Calendars? :P)

Edit: Darn! Only one new thing…but I guess that mean the rest of it will be next week along with the fireworks.

Circlets and Sabers

Dear Double-bladed lightsaber:


(Benevolent Venerable Exemplar’s Lightsaberstaff)

YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL. WHY ARE YOU DOUBLE-BLADED? WE WOULD LOOK SO FANCY TOGETHER.


LOOK HOW FANCY.

LOOK HOW BEAUTIFUL YOU COULD BE SINGLE-BLADED:

OR
(horrible edits by me)

…why can’t there be single bladed versions of double-bladed lightsabers T~T and vice versa. Whhhhhy. someone suggest this. please. please please please.

oh, and I drew up a horrible doodle from memory of that circlet hat I saw on a Sage that I still haven’t figured out what it was (ONE DAY I HOPE T~T)–the sides may have been more like chains over a band… but blah πŸ™ :

edit: oh and note to self, get a K-313 Riot Needler for Miisha.

The Raiding Situation

People have said I’m trying to avoid raiding… which is kind of true. I know I need to do it due to gear-related things (and the whole thing about a pet dropping from NM EC…plus 2 mounts now :/ And the title).

however, ignoring my busy schedule (have to head out soon actually), the big thing is just not feeling good enough. As a perfectionist, if I don’t feel I can perform perfectly or manage to be the top (which I never do, I suck too much), that is already making me feel too depressed to bother.

Ignoring that part, the big thing is all the stupidity over firsts still. I don’t care about firsts–what I do care about is how people have to go and start making it personal, even to people not involved. Constantly insulting and berating–both publicly and privately and it’s not funny. It isn’t cute, you look stupid, but it’s not something I can just be all “haha, *ignores* they are so stupid”.

no, it actually makes me upset. Part of why I try so hard is I make everything very personal to me. This isn’t a front, I’m not just doing things for fun, everything is really important to me. So when people say they just want something because it’s rare, it pisses me off and I’d like to punch them in the face.

But I do not like being insulted. I do not like being criticized for something I’m not even apart of. It makes me upset and to be completely honest, has ruined raiding for me. I don’t want to see it. I don’t want anything to do with it and I just wish it didn’t exist.

If I wanted to continued being bullied, I wouldn’t have been home schooled in the first place.

in a less depressing note, yay for another Livestream Q&A tomorrow…even if it’s short and probably won’t have many questions πŸ™ I shall try and keep my hopes up.

oh, and the other new EC speeder (for defeating within 2 hours) looks like a shark and is kind of cute.

…still nothing on a possible pet yet though. :/

Hoth is done~ + Boxes

So, I finished Hoth on Cellina last night. Looking forward to completing Chapter 2 today. I just want to get her story done and see the end @-@ I just wish I didn’t have to do so much other stuff besides the story quests to get there :/

In a different note, this article pretty much gets why I hate Cartel Packs so much and I recommend reading it! I do agree with the solution… I’ve said it many times myself I wouldn’t mind paying extra afterall. And for another idea, even making it so you can also get it ingame somehow (after a challenging quest of course) would be nice…but if they have to keep it pay to cash, just give people the option to buy the item, even if it’s a bit higher priced.

…but nope. :/

There’s just… no good reason for those kinds of things, to be honest. You can’t even honestly say to give people who like surprises something to have fun with as there’s no reason you can’t just do the “items are sold for this much but you can try your luck with this cheaper box if you’d like” if that was true.

And that makes me so sad. v-v At least they aren’t permanently bound though… why I’m still here.

Pet Analyzation

While I wait for my boyfriend to get up so we can try out the Belsavis Dailies (although, we’d have to find 2 more people for one of them), I have decided to wander around near the entrance to the area and the fleet and see what pets people may have.

Essentially, this helps me figure out what pets are ingame without bugging people and/or getting trolled by jerks.

And of course, I’ll look for mounts too, but those are a bit harder to identify, sadly.

I will only be counting the ones in the Cartel Packs for now because, well, you can kind of see the ones not in the pack already so…

All of the pets from Dulfy’s Guide have been found and were carried over to live.

As for SWTOR-Spy’s list, I know some people have gotten thrones, but I don’t think it is any of those… another similarly named one is the Ubrikki Crimson Skull which I haven’t seen, but I have seen the Ubrikki Crimson Claw.

Moving on to pets, the only ones seen thus far have been the Red-Backed Gizka and the Ruddyscale Kowakian Monkey-lizard. No others from their pet list have been spotted yet or if they have, nobody has said anything.

The main thing is there are a lot of “What if’s” and I would like to not see something like the Wonderous Egg happen ever again. EVER.

which I think is why it upsets me so much they didn’t release a list. For the record, a list wouldn’t ruin the money they’d make (in fact, more often than not, you’d actually encourage more people to try a box) as usually what sells is the actual opening/surprise factor.

One of my favorite things when I was little was when my dad would come home with boxes of Pokemon cards and Beanie Baby cards and he and my mom and I would sit on the bed and open all of them and organize them because opening booster packs was ridiculously fun and there were so many. That is essentially what these work on–that surprise factor and the excitement of opening something.

Just think to Christmas morning–sure, what was actually in the gift was nice, but a big part of it was just opening it and the more you had to open, the more exciting it was. With each box, the excitement increased.

and this is why people go in debt because of stupid things like this and if you see me thinking of buying more boxes, someone SLAP me.

…and for some reason, I keep getting an error when trying to log in 😐 So I guess research will be delayed which stinks. I was looking forward to it.

…seriously, this blog is like SWTOR research central. It’s why it was made. And then for some reason all of you people started reading it πŸ˜›

Anyway, I guess I’ll just talk for a bit while I wait until they somehow fix this (speaking of which, I noticed the time is off on the website… I guess they didn’t modify for DST? But I’m not sure how to change that either).

Umm…firstly, I hope they come out with customizations for HK-51. I think he’d look nice in HK-47’s copper.

I really hope we can do Dreadtooth soon. Really want to look into that cave more and since current ideas are based off a mask and necklace that drop from him (well, necklace most likely also drops from him–just on much higher stacks), I kind of need to start doing him? Of course, the guild is currently focused on NM EC as are many guilds with firsts in mind and whatnot (but honestly, how can you appropriately evaluate a first anyway? If someone starts earlier than you and has more time doing it, it’s not really a surprise if they get it first. It seems kind of odd to judge something if you don’t have everyone start at the same time)… but I just want to solve Cave mysteries πŸ™

speaking of Cave Mysteries, that was part of the fun with scanning even if it took FOREVER. It was like being an archeologist~ Considering how the story is on the Republic side, I probably will have to do HK again on my Imperial character as it’s just so much different. Part of me is looking forward to it as I did have fun, but parts of it scared me. I’M LOOKING AT YOU CREEPY SHIP. Regardless, this is making me want to finish up Corellia and Ilum for Amidaia, but I’m pretty sure my boyfriend still wants to work on his bounty hunter with Cellina πŸ™ Don’t get me wrong, the agent story is quite interesting, but I hate doing things out of order and skipping around. Having several companions with various levels isn’t very fun to me.

also just realized I never received my 500 for my subscription so I guess I shall send them an e-mail @-@

MOVING ON… someone did finish EC HM but I saw no pet drop πŸ™ Which makes me sad. I mean, it was confirmed a pet would drop from EC NM but I can’t help and be paranoid ._. of course, just because it doesn’t have a high drop rate doesn’t mean it doesn’t drop either…

Regardless, a lot of people in the guild have offered me some of their pets from the Cartel Shop so I am looking forward to when things become unbound. I will also be stalking the GTN like no tomorrow (despite the fact that I am poor and have no money and it will probably make me even more sad if I wasn’t sad enough by how much my luck sucks and these stupid boxes). In the meantime, I have started crossing things out.

While I was hoping to do trades, I don’t think anyone would want any of the stuff I’ve gotten. Of course, I may update with some stuff my boyfriend wants to get rid of or etc. so I guess I will mention when it gets updated… Also, it’s under the “Contact Me” section if anyone was curious.

speaking of items, I have a good contest idea…just need to get something people would actually want 😐

Oh, and I know I don’t have many pictures up… I will hopefully be taking pictures of the pets soon. At least, the ones I have. I don’t think taking a picture on the preview screen looks too great and I’d feel bad using other people’s pictures so… but I shall do my best to have them all soon x__x of course, we don’t even know how many there are yet.

but yes, I will stop talking about random stuff now and end this. WORK LOG-IN THINGY.

In Disney World + HM TfB!

So, I am at Disney World. What this means is I probably won’t update much! Regardless, I have my laptop and cellphone so I will be able to check things. I’ll just be partying in Disney and hanging out with Pooh and being a Magical Princess of magicalness.

MOVING ON… There’s going to be an Alt HM TfB 8-man run tomorrow! I’m so excited. It looks like I was confirmed so as long as everything goes well and I get back before 8:50, I will get to go!

I really hope we finish it :3 I will be saving my special need roll for the Deep Wriggler. and if I am beaten I will cry and it will ruin my vacation

I just REALLY hope it drops as it seems it may actually be a 50% drop πŸ™ and if it doesn’t, I will cry

BUT YES, WISH ME LUCK. eeeeeee <3 Edit: It sadly didn't go well πŸ™

The Credit Factor

As most people should know by now, I am awful at earning credits (or any currency of any game/site really). There’s several reasons as to why, but the #1 reason has come down to the fact that in general, I am “too nice”. Whether that is true or not, I don’t know, but I am a goodie-two shoes if you couldn’t figure that out either for some reason.

So, let’s go over the ways people tend to make money:

Crafting

If you have ever looked over at my Characters page, you will see I have given every single character one of the crew skills (with the exception of Roseria who has just ones to get her through flashpoints quicker and regardless, there’s only 6 different crew skills so). Two of them are actually at 400–Marilea who has 400 in Synthweaving, Slicing, and Underworld Trading and Amidaia who has 400 in Cybertech and Scavenging.

Due to the fact that I do not raid on Amidaia, she doesn’t actually have the ability to make anything anyone would care about. And I find nobody ever really wants anything my Synthweaver can make (besides Augments I suppose). Besides that, I do not think of crafting as something that just runs in the background and thus, do not use it unless:
A. I need something.
B. I know someone needs something and can make it for them.

And then I just give it to them. The idea of running it constantly and selling things doesn’t dawn on me at all. Part of this is probably because it is the first game I have ever crafted in. That isn’t to say I’ve never made things in games (MySims comes to mind), but it was in that format–make something as I need it and that was it. I never made it again.

Not to mention I know with Amidaia, I can send her some stuff through Legacy, but besides wondering if that is even supposed to work that way… I don’t take extras. I will always feel really bad if I take extras because:
1. Someone may need it more
2. I’m just…not a big crafter

I would hate to take something away from someone who really wanted. I don’t care if it’s about the roll. Being “fair” doesn’t always justify breaking someone’s art and crushing their soul.

So, that’s something I just can’t really wrap my head around. And when it comes to figuring out prices for things…well, we’ll cover that more in one of the other sections.

Dailies, Weeklies, Flash Points, Operations, and Space Missions

Also known as…the repeat until you want to smash your head against walls and never have to think about things again.

Now, a lot of people do their Dailies and Weeklies every day. This gets them several hundred thousand credits every day and even more with the weeklies each week. I am, obviously, not one of those people.

But why not? I just…can’t do the repetition. It’s a bit of an odd situation as I am a very organized person, I tend to put myself on a schedule, I often go around in circles (not literally–more like I tend to do the same things every day), so what is my issue with repetition in game?

It’s not so much doing the same thing…it’s the thing not changing and/or it being the same thing over and over that kills me. I have a very good memory so it’s like a permanent phase of deja vu whenever I do something and then I just can’t bother to pay attention. In fact, that is the hardest part with my alts right now because I’ve SEEN the Republic Storyline. I’ve SEEN the Imperial Storyline. And no matter what I do, I can not get enough experience to skip those things completely, so here I am half listening to cutscenes because it’s just killing me. It isn’t new.

However, I will state right now the games that do the randomness for something are not any better for me because the end is still the same. What happens when you finish does not change–just the way to get there and maybe you take a right instead of a left and I hate those things because I get lost enough as it is and do not like not knowing where to go to get out of this horribleness as quickly as possible because once I do it once, I am done and if I have to go back, I will cry.

I have already mentioned several times my issues with the difficulties so I’ll skip that for now.

Another thing is, I have issues with many of these.

-Dailies: Just too repetitive. And Belsavis has scarred me for life.
-Weeklies: Need people. And…I’d rather not do some of the things for weeklies ever again.
-Operations: I enjoy KP a lot, but will admit I am starting to (finally) get burnt out on it. Regardless, I am willing to help people out with it. However, I need a new mouse before I can do the puzzle again πŸ™ and can’t afford one right now. I hate EV though. Just…please don’t ask me to do EV. please please please please don’t. I hate saying no. It makes me feel like such a jerk, but I just…I can’t. I can’t take doing EV at all. It has just been so permanently ruined for me that it would take me quite a long time to get over this. And each time I do it, it just makes it worse. Eventually I’m going to completely zone out doing it and everyone is going to die. As for TfB and EC…well, I have a lot of rotten memories for EC so it is another operation, like EV, which has just been completely ruined for me. Also like EV, I hate the first boss. Regardless, at least you get credits for mobs and I do still need a mount which makes it less horrifying. But I will admit everytime I do end up doing Explosive Conflict, I feel pretty depressed. Finally, TfB I’m just kind of annoyed with. Why couldn’t the Wriggler drop on Story Mode? Why? πŸ™ Overall though, it’s fun, but the pet stress is starting to kill me. I can’t really say why this bothers me more than the M0-GUL Thrall Droid did, but I would guess it’s partially because it only drops on one mode (just imagine how I’ll be with NM EC) and it’s one mode I can’t just…try and grab people and go.

I’m a shy person and no matter what it is, I hate asking people for help. In fact, unless you offer, I will most likely never ask. If I do finally ask, it’s really really REALLY important to me and when someone does say no, I usually get really sad and start blaming myself which is part of why I try not to ask in the first place. Even something as simple as asking someone if they have a schematic makes me really nervous and I just can’t do it.

Flash Points – Besides, you know, killing the chests and other things… I do not care for many of them. They were fun the first time (well, most–some were not, I’ll get to them shortly), but not so much and no, the harder difficulty means absolutely nothing. In fact, I find more fun going through the lower difficulty, not because I don’t like a challenge, but because it gets done with even quicker.

I hate Teral V, Directive 7, Kaon and Lost Island. The first two due to just…incredibly bad experiences (My first HM Teral V took about 5+ hours and my first Directive 7 (not even HM) involved us repeatedly dying to the first boss because one of our DPS kept messing up) while the latter two are due to my fear of zombies. Transformation sequences like the one at the end of Lost Island and earlier in Kaon if you don’t kill the guy really creep me out and the mutant humans were my biggest issue with the Rakghoul event and just make me start gagging. Besides that, both of them constantly make me fear for my life and I panic with healing worries.

I would say my favorite flashpoints are Esseles and False Emperor. The former due to being the first flashpoint I ever did and the latter being my first HM Flashpoint where I received my first Columni piece. They are both nostalgic for me so I am slightly less annoyed doing them.

Regardless, there isn’t a “Only do Esseles and False Emperor” weekly and doing them every day would ruin them for me so maybe it’s better that way.

Finally, that brings us to Space Missions. I can’t aim worth crud. That is pretty much the reason. I can barely do the easy space missions. I had to have my boyfriend finish them for me. I’m terrible at them. Really really terrible. The amount of time it would take me to earn any credits as I fail mercilessly on space mission after space mission is not worth it.

Play the Market – Use that GTN

I am pretty good at Math and I love numbers, but when it comes to trying to figure out pricing of something, that goes out the window. Whether it be in real life or online, I’m not great at bartering. I never know what to ask so I always ask people to offer out of fear I’d accidentally overprice it and scare them off or underprice it and rip myself off. With Markets like the GTN, that is my constant fear and thus, I usually end u just putting nothing or giving it away to someone who needs it if I do have an extra. or just selling it to a vendor to get it out of my inventory ASAP because OCPD away~

Of course, I could just look at the market and price it below someone else’s… but by how much? That is the question that plagues me. And what happens if someone prices lower than me? Then what do I do? And then I just worry and it doesn’t go well at all. And if something doesn’t sell, I can’t help but get sad and take it personal because when it comes down to it, I take everything personal (P.S. I also can’t tell when someone is joking).

Finally, I just…feel bad. Here’s something I am making for free and I’m supposed to go sell it? Not to mention the idea of buying stuff up to put it back for sale at a higher price just makes me feel so guilty. And thus, we head back to the first paragraph of this giant post.

PVP

PVP is the one exception of repetition due to the fact that the matches can be so crazy and it can be a easy win or a giant battle until the end. So in the sense of repetition, I don’t mind PVP.

My issue with PVP is PVP itself. I do not play fighting games against people. I do not battle Pokemon with people. The reason for this is I feel bad, personally, if I have defeated someone (which is rare as I get VERY nervous and usually screw up) because they worked hard.

So when I get killed in PVP, I get upset. Every single time I die or something targets me or attacks me, I get really really upset. And if I know you? I usually will want to cry (if I wasn’t already). Way to break my heart, jerk. <-- kind of a joke. sort of. Not completely, but I know it's a game and you don't mean it...hopefully ._. Thus, my issue with PVP is it essentially breaks me. It breaks my spirit and makes me really upset and I hate it. I also hate to lose and give up so just… PVP and I don’t get along in the fact that I’m not okay with what it’s all about.

I just can’t enjoy playing against another player. Whatsoever. It isn’t fun for me. (slight exception for party games and some board games though)

Tips

The last way to earn credits is to ask for tips. Whether it be as I pull people various places or guide people to pets, most people would ask for some compensation. I’d feel like a jerk as it’s no trouble for myself and it’s not like I was doing anything anyway (and even if I was or wasn’t even planning to get on, I’d probably still do so if you asked and needed help).

…yeah, this is where that first paragraph comes up again.

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So there you have it. Why I will probably never find a good way to earn credits. Unless being a walking pet guide starts becoming a paying job.

…kidding, I’d feel bad if that happened too since I just like helping people πŸ™ blah.