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A post from a bus

Jul24

So, we are currently on the way back from the hotel. The raid started about 10 minutes ago and they said they would wait up to 20 for us but we shall see.

I ‘m still feeling pretty iffy (see last several updates) so I’m not sure how I feel yet.

On the…kind of bright side (yay for always, bleh for more competition), apparently Campaign isn’t class specific when it drops! So, if we clear it 8 times (2 months) everyone will be geared minus boots which are gotten from Nightmare Pilgrim.

…I wish I felt last sucky.

Edit: So, got here 10 minutes late…was accused of being 30 minutes late despite the fact that we were told we’d have 20 minutes leeway, not really sure what the heck is going on (We’re apparently short healers for some reason?), one of the tanks in the other group still hates me (so yes, I have at least two, if not 3, people in the guild who have issues with me) so our second in command’s plan (which I said wouldn’t work) of me healing the other group obviously failed.

anyway, it looks like one healer couldn’t make it so a healer in the other group went on their sage while the healer who hates me in our group will be healing their group while a healer they could’ve brought in (the one who replaced me that I mentioned) is in ours since the other group had issues with her. *confused for life*

what really bothers me is how annoyed it seemed they were at me when I said there’d be an issue, I e-mailed several times, and they weren’t even ready to go besides just us.

Alt Funds + Still sad

Jul23

At the moment, I really don’t want to see my Sage or Sorcerer right now. I don’t want to run into anyone. This is stupid. I’m expected to give my choice today and to be honest, I shouldn’t be the one making this choice. In fact, the person who forced them to ask me is the one who needs to be spoken to.

As to lessen confusion, Person A is the one who made the “request”, Person B and C are the people who are allowing the “request”, and Person C said he would be one of the people who would quit if Person A did. What surprised me is Person C also said 3 others would quit with him and Person A, so I asked one of the 3 he mentioned and Person D responded he actually wouldn’t quit if Person A quit–though, he’d probably follow Person C and he only found out about an hour before I messaged him and really didn’t want to get involved. I just..this whole situation is a mess.

and now I’m making myself upset again, so let me get to the point of this… This is essentially how much I’d need to save before I can play each character. This is listed essentially in the order I want to play them.

1. Miisha – 1,500,000 for Twi’lek race so she can be pink and 465K for Max Class Experience, Max Exploration Experience, and Speeder Training Level 1 for a total of 1,965,000. Would like to get her this top at the very least, but not sure if I’d have her be in pants or a skirt.

2. Cellina – 465K for Max Class Experience, Max Exploration Experience, and Speeder Training Level 1. I like this skirt, but not sure about the top and also not sure if I want her in a skirt or pants yet. Also interested in the following tops: Synthmesh Battle, Black Talon Operative, and Terenthium Barrage. Not sure which I’d want though. I really like the design of the last one, but I have never been a big fan of the color yellow. seriously, why couldn’t you choose what to unify something to. …Honestly though, she’ll probably be in the same top as Miisha–just the Imperial version. I just…really like that top.

Note: I do not mind reversing the order of #3 and #4.

3. Zoara – 1,500,000 for Zabrak race so she can be pink and 465K for Max Class Experience, Max Exploration Experience, and Speeder Training Level 1 for a total of 1,965,000. Would wear this. Currently stuck on what to give her hairstyle-wise, however between these 3:

(special thanks to this video for me to screencap from)

Please only focus on the hair styles–not anything else.

4. Aurorra – 465K for Max Class Experience, Max Exploration Experience, and Speeder Training Level 1. I actually think she may be put in this or some combination of that and this.

5. Roseria * – 465K for Max Class Experience, Max Exploration Experience, and Speeder Training Level 1. I want her in The Force Evangelist Outfit. I believe it can gotten from the PVP Vendor so I may need to PVP with her for a bit which kind of stinks 🙁

And I may want to get Amidaia this top.

*She will mostly be played when playing with others so depending on how it goes (like if we actually get some of our friends to play), none of the experience boosts may be needed.

So, not counting outfit costs, that’s a total of 4,860,000 for just the first 4 characters. Counting Roseria, that’s an extra 465K so 5,325,000.

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Now, these are characters that I just plan to rush through story-wise and get their Companions maxed out ASAP. They will then be deleted (Not to mention I can only have one at a time to begin with).

6. Jedi Knight – 465K for Max Class Experience, Max Exploration Experience, and Speeder Training Level 1 and 180K for Companion chatting + gifting boosts for a total of 645K.

7. Sith Warrior – 465K for Max Class Experience, Max Exploration Experience, and Speeder Training Level 1 and 180K for Companion chatting + gifting boosts for a total of 645K.

So the total for these 2 is 1,290,000. Including these two with the initial costs above, that’s 6,150,000-6,615,000.

*sighs*

Conversing

Jul23

So, I ended up talking to several people for advice. In general, what it has come out to has been pretty much unanimously that it’s screwed up and unfair I was put into this position, that this member shouldn’t be allowed to act like that, and that if I’m going to be treated like that, I should quit/find a new guild.

There is nothing I can say. It doesn’t matter. I’d have to change the mind of a person who obviously wants nothing to do with me.

Unfortunately, if I did quit, I’d feel horrible. We’d probably stay guildless for a good while as well, if not permanently.

I’ll probably just wait until my boyfriend gets up though to talk more about it as it concerns him too. As it is, the clock is ticking down and they want my answer…unfortunately, I’m still not sure what it is.

Useless

Jul22

Absolutely nothing I said matters. They are refusing to understand my point. And despite it being just a member who has the issue, I’m the one made to suffer due to it.

I just…don’t know what to do. I don’t even want to look at my sage right now.

So many feelings

Jul20

Today…has not been a very good day. In fact, when they least sucky part of the day was dailies, that kind of says it all.

I’m still pretty frustrated with my stupid armor. And the fact that I’m not being listened to. Because, you know, obviously leveling up with this class means nothing. I either have to wear it or I will not be able to do Hard Mode Explosive Conflict. That is stupid for something that has no stat benefits. Quoting the guide mentioned earlier in another quote of theirs:

In terms of set bonuses, the 2-piece should be considered compulsory (a reduction on the cooldown of our bread-and-butter ability is invaluable), while the 4-piece is optional. The extra 50 force points provides a small buffer, and also makes Noble Sacrifice regain slightly more force (since it returns a fixed percentage of your health pool), but if you manage your resources effectively you should have no issues without it.

And it’s true. It’s just…it doesn’t help. Even one of our guild mates who healed while he leveled said it makes no difference. Because it doesn’t. But gee, what do I know? I’d love to switch back. So much. But I don’t want to hear it. I don’t want to be yelled at. Not to mention I’m sure who they’re place me with…and god they annoy me. And I can’t afford to anyway. He may have paid for me to switch, but who’s stuck paying to switch back to what I didn’t want to switch from to begin with? Me. 🙁

Anyway, I had gotten on to do some comparisons and things while working from home today, but was dragged off to dailies (Told I could just throw down heals and follow along) so I shrugged and gave in. We ended up stopping after Belsavis though to help out friends. They went to help out a guildmate with the +10 Fleet Datacron and I went to help a friend with LI HM as the healer with him quit…unfortunately, the DPS with him got tired of waiting (it wasn’t even long) and also quit. I managed to bring in 2 DPS and it just…it was horrible. I can’t even pinpoint what went wrong. The DPS was pretty low, which was odd as I know both are capable and have seen them do it together, the tank was just…kind of awkward? I guess? My heals seemed useless. And I got grenaded several times which didn’t help. I just… I can’t even… I honestly don’t know. I’m just going to say this outfit is cursed.

We eventually had to go–the two DPS were just tired of losing (and I can’t blame them. I honestly don’t know what went wrong though) and I had a raid to do go…which ended up being canceled due to us missing a healer. So, I was told to go join the other Ops group to help them finish up EC (they just had Kephess left) and they’d save the rest of them to help on Sunday.

…now, I like most of the other raid team, but why wasn’t I asked? I was just told what to do. I still had to work, my boyfriend wanted to do some stuff with me when he heard, but I was sent off. I really don’t care that it was half done either, but my issue is nobody even asked.

Anyway, it took us 4 tries as I got berated by one specific tank for not healing well enough (along with the other healer, but I’m sure it was more towards me–not the first time). Regardless, we did get it done. After, they apparently wanted to drag me on a KP HM–but not only is it not my usual group (though, I would’ve loved to help out most of them) and I didn’t know what my group was doing, I still had work to do and my boyfriend had wanted to play with me and once again, I wasn’t asked, it was just pretty much “you’re coming, right?”. I just…seriously, ask. I can’t stress that enough. And I really didn’t have time today. I only got 1/3 of the work done (though, I should be able to get the rest done today) due to constant streams of “It’ll only take a few minutes, it’s just *insertwhateverhere*” and fdl;sdgkgd;lsdl;sd I just…seriously. Too many feelings and frustrations.

In a note of happy today, however, I received these wonderful WIPs that were drawn by Sakonma. I will be using one (possibly both–but at least one) for when I work on the new banner:

I can’t wait to see them colored.

Besides that, Codex Progress is now under “When it comes to Collecting…” and also a new section under “My Characters”.

Also, been having lots of creativity strikes lately–unfortunately, I can’t draw so four of them won’t happen, but I may write a bit. So if you see any password protected entries…that’s why. You have to suffer enough when you read this stuff–I won’t make you suffer more by reading my fanfiction.

Frustration and Birthdayness

Jul19

Continuing in usual faction, I will start with the latter part of the subject:
THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO WISHED ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY YESTERDAY! And a bonus thank you to those who sent gifts. It was a really awesome surprise and I appreciated it.

Now, to the former part of the subject… My frustration grows. I’m starting to understand how Combat sentinel feel is one way to put it.

I was gotten back to by my friend and he told me how both his sages said the Set Bonus really helps with bosses, so I asked two questions:
1. Have they ever not used the set bonus?
and
2. Did you notice anything different in the log? (I had sent him my combat log to look over)

The answer to both of these questions was “No”

which means:
1. They never tried without the bonus so they really have nothing to test it on
2. That means even without the set bonus, I was not doing better or worse with it. I was doing exactly the same.

My boyfriend is a combat sentinel so I constantly see him being yelled at to be Watchman by, well, other Watchman’s–most who have usually never tried Combat to begin with (and a good portion of the ones who have that just didn’t understand it). I’ve seen Combat Sentinels do more damage than Watchman many times. Watchman may have it’s advantages (and it’s much better for PVP), but Combat isn’t bad.

In that sense, neither is not using a set bonus. If you do your rotation right, 50 force will never make a difference. While Healing Trace’s cooldown reduce is helpful, again, if you’re doing it right, you won’t ever find a point where you will not have it ready to go when you need it.

In fact, I will have to choose between losing 11 Willpower and having the 2 and 4 Force-Mystic Set Bonus or keeping the 11 Willpower and having the 2 Set Bonus from Force-Mystic and Force-Master. I am used to the latter, but I know I will be criticized if I do not do the former despite it being no different.

When the official site is back up, I may ask for advice in that regard, but I would like to continue to point out that the Set Bonus has done nothing for me. I did not do better. I did not worse. You just forced me to switch for absolutely nothing and I’m stuck using this because of what other people say.

You are not me. You do not know how I play my class. So stop acting like you do. Stop acting like you know my class when you don’t.

Not all guides are right–that’s why you try and ask actual people who played the character. And if they say something different than what you assumed by how they may have done something (which, for all you know, could just be a hold over until they can get what they need), saying that they’re wrong does not make you look better or help anyone.

And while number crunching and theory can do a lot, it’s still not perfect. You still need to actually try because sometimes, it might not be that simple.

Moving on, we may have a lead on the Wondrous Egg…but who knows :/ At least more nests have been found.

ugh

Jul18

Even just loading up the game and seeing those stupid ugly shoulder pads that look like they’ll pop out of the game and poke you in the eye made me wince. 😐

Shall still try and have a party, but the game has just made me very v-v at the moment and it’s not even fully the game’s fault.

Regardless, Thank you to those who sent me birthday wishes on the game. I wish I looked nice for it though.

Broken Spirit

Jul18

Short version:
Currently stuck back in Rakata/Tionese/Columni gear for a Set Bonus that is absolute crud because the person playing the class (aka me) obviously doesn’t know better. -_-

Missing my Elegant Dress. Frustrated with HM EC (and the fact that I can only get the Set Bonus from Campaign and if I get lucky enough to have the Consular gear drop + win it). Sick of having like no credits.

My birthday is in about 10 minutes has started by the time I finished writing this and I was looking forward to having an endless party on the fleet (just a little one tonight and most of the day tomorrow), but now I just want to curl up into a ball and cry out of frustration.

Long version:
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*sighs*

Jul15

So, new thing has been stated in the guild where if you need the level 8 crafting materials for personal use, it’ll be 50K for Blue Mods and 100K for Purple Mods.

Maybe I’m just bothered because I’m probably the only one in the guild who can’t afford them, but it just seems silly to do considering a bunch of people in the guild work together to get them in the first place.

Of course, maybe the rule was put in place due to some people taking them and then selling them? That’s…super screwed up though.

Or maybe it just makes me further annoyed that it seems one of the people in the guild who could make certain things people need just keeps selling them for ridiculous prices when they know someone needs them.

I just wish I had the credits to get this over with–the more I hit the stupid wall, the more it makes it hard to play. As it is, I may need to change my mods over to the stupid set bonus gear and the thought of that alone makes me want to cry.