Goals and Failure
Sometimes there are days where everything goes wrong…but on top of that, there are times where those days happen and there’s nothing you can really point a finger on as to say why. Whether it be being teased until your heart breaks or repeatedly wiping on something you should know or essentially being told something important to you doesn’t matter.
There are times things happen. Things that despite the fact you knew how they’d go (due to sucking in comparison) still hurt as you see dreams shatter around you. But is there anyone to blame on something expectant? No, not really. Because in the end, it’s just my fault.
Despite my continued issues with my own self, I’m not really upset or mad at anyone. I’m not sure why EC went so wrong or when I will get a Deep Wriggler but I hope we’ll be able to kick EC’s butt and Terror from Beyond’s butt and maybe I’ll get a Deep Wriggler soon and his name will be Wriggles. And yes, I know I could technically blame Bioware for making pets drop in operations in the first place or the fact that a fix may have made a fight worse but…that doesn’t make me feel better and issues do happen. And I am sure it will be fixed eventually.
…I really do wish pets would stop being put in operations though….
and maybe I can work on improving to the point where I wouldn’t be such a horrible person and can actually get my goals done right away. A lot of people say I stress a lot and I’ll be honest, it is true. When I make a goal, I want it completed essentially 5 minutes before I made the goal in the first place. I’m not really an impatient person, but I’m a paranoid person. The Wonderous Egg is probably a perfect example of why I could become more paranoid surrounding pets.
Right now, it seems the Deep Wriggler is a 100% drop. But what if that is an issue? What if it was supposed to be a 0.01% drop? Or a 1% drop or some other tiny cruel amount to taunt me for ages. Or what if another Wonderous Egg situation appears and really, who the heck knows what is going on with that. Glitches happen, codexes glitch, items glitch, I can’t really blame things for not being perfect and/or fixed. Things happen. I know I’m not perfect
even if I desperately wish to be. Despite that, I will be on, I will be doing my usual research, and I will be rooting the heck out of them to get this over with because all this server first competition is silly. Yes, I said it, it is silly. World first is silly. It is all silly. To me, anyway. But–for those who care, I wish you the best of luck at completing your goals too.
“wait, didn’t you want the server first pet?” you may ask (okay, nobody is asking this but shush!)
Yes and no. It’s not actually about server first to me, but rather getting the goal done as quickly as possible. Sure, it’d be cool to actually have a server first, but it’s not actually my goal. I’m a supportive person, but I’m also competitive and can even be jealous sometimes. This is partially (or maybe even completely) due to the fact that I am a perfectionist. I need to have it done. The sooner, the better. And every single time I continue to see someone with something I still need, my heart breaks. If I am not doing the best, I just feel like a complete and utter failure who doesn’t deserve to play or be brought along anywhere. It’s a big flaw of mine. It’s also something that sometimes can come off as fishing for compliments–so I will say right here, it isn’t what I try to do. I won’t believe the person anyway and essentially, it is what it is. I’ve come to terms on it. And while there’s certain people who still worry ridiculously about me *waves to boyfriend*, it’s not something I necessarily can control.
On the bright side, this means I strive hard to succeed. But only to a certain point–when it gets to a point where I feel there’s nothing I can do, that all my goals are impossible, it’s not going to happen….I crash. Hard. Cheer and determination gets slapped with a giant pile of demotivation and then it is just a struggle to play until the point where I just won’t want to. So it’s one of those things that really throws people off because, afterall, “Wouldn’t you want to have a lot of goals to keep you playing?” Most people would, but that isn’t how I work. I want my goals done so I can work on just saving up for future ones and for every second my goals are incomplete or something gets added, my stress level goes up and I feel slightly more saddened over how behind I am.
“But why would you get on if you already finished all your goals?” I’m going to pretend you asked even though you didn’t and probably won’t read this because seriously, what do you care about any of this and why am I wasting your time…
Because, despite the fact that I can be a bit selfish sometimes and if someone rolls over me on a pet I need I will be glaring at you forever, I really do like to help people. I tend to bother people a lot. Whether it be to ask them to help me with something or credit help or asking a question or just bugging them to see how I can improve, I tend to put a lot of weight on people’s shoulders. I wouldn’t say I’m a completely dependent person, but I put a lot of trust in friends. A lot. Which is probably why I get hurt so much, especially if I consider someone a friend who may not feel the same way about me. So when it comes down to it, the least I can do is help someone back out. If I had all the credits in the world, sure, I’d probably get most of my goals done first (see stressing the longer each goal is incomplete), but after that, if a friend needed something, I’d probably just surprise them with it.
…and then I’d be poor again when my next set of goals come around but at least I made people happy! I don’t mind sitting on the sandcrawler for hours on end or explaining how to get every codex and pet in the game or even taking you along! You need a datacron guide? I’m at your call. Because in the end, I just want to know I was able to do something to say “thank you for putting up with me”. And regardless of whether I know you or not, I will always just want to help. Unless I hate you. And even then I may still help you because I feel bad easily.
Moving on to actual goals… Gear will take a while. As it is, I still do not know how many I will need for certain things for sure. However, apparently some people have already started reverse engineering things and someone was actually selling Advanced Adept Enhancement 27 on the fleet. If you bought 3, they were just 2 million each T__T I need at least 3, possibly 4…shall know for sure once Mr. Robot updates. Of course, I can’t afford that and even if I could…well, let’s be honest, I’d have to have my ship legacy stuff and all the speeders (6 million + about 3.3 million) before I’d spend the 6-8 million on the enhancement. …I probably should have still gotten their name though.
There are 4 reasons for that:
1. Gear is on a lower priority for me to begin with
2. I could get the gear a different way anyhow eventually (although…repetition. 😐 At least I’d be able to help people however!)
3. There is no other to get the speeders and Ship Legacy stuff.
4. When it comes down to it, those have been on my goal list a lot longer than some mods that only became available less than a week ago.
As it is, I still have PVP Goals where I have made absolutely no progress, but more things have been added on. I technically have enough for the gloves and boots of the Consular’s Exalted set, but that would only leave me with about 250K and I don’t think that’d be good…
This, of course, will probably stem “why do you lump goal amounts altogether again? Why not just try and separate things? It’d be easier to get then”. This is most likely because I am a very all or nothing person. In a similar way to how I hate giving up, I don’t getting just half-way there. It’s also harder to keep track. And my goals are long enough without me spelling everything out.
Essentially, my top goals are still getting the 5 million for the Ship GTN, the 1 million for both Ship Dummies, and the money I need for all the speeders. There are only 2 speeders I can get that I can not buy:
–The HM Kephess mount. I…hope we can complete it soon 🙁
–The Ranked Warzone Mount (but…I don’t think anyone wants to bring me on ranked ._. Even if my expertise is slightly over 1,100 with all my gear now. I’m not really sure what to aim for here though 🙁 )
I still never managed to get Campaign Gloves, but considering the Dread Guard stuff, it isn’t really a big priority
and it’s not like I ever use my 4-set piece bonus.
so, when it comes to goal priorities:
PRIORITY NUMBER 1:
pets pets pets pets pets All current ones gotten
6 Million 5 million for Ship Legacy stuff
3. ~3.2 Million for Speeders (+HM EC Speeder +Ranked Speeder)
Getting all the new Terror from Beyond Codexes I need
5. Czerka Crate-O-Matic
Consular’s Exalted Boots and Gloves
Total cost: ~3.5 million + lots of pain + 36 Corellia Commendations per horrible box try 🙁
1. PVE Gear
2. Hitting Legacy Level 50
3. Hitting Valor Rank 100
4. EMP Generator
5. Electronic Warfare Pod
Total cost: ~varies based on mod sellers and repairs. Also need 240 Fleet Commendations 🙁 Most of these will just be time consuming though.
1. Getting Amidaia all finished up (need to finish Corellia and Ilum and flashpoints :|)
2. Get Speederisk done so I can delete him already and get Speederisk2 started and done.
3. Get the following character perks for each alt: Legacy of Altruism, Legacy of Persuasion, Speeder Level 1, All Story Experience, All Exploration Experience (For a total of 645K). If flashpoints needed, add them for a new total of 920K
——-Cellina already has Speeder Level 1, 3/5 of Class Mission and 4/5 of Exploration lowering her total to 405K-680K.
——-Miisha already has Speeder level 1, 3/5 of Class Mission, 3/5 of Exploration, and 2/5 of Flashpoint lowering her total to 445K-495K
——-Speederisk already has Speeder level 1 lowering his total to 605K-880K.
——-Roseria already has Speeder level 1 lowering her total to 605K-880K.
4. Finishing all character’s stories and getting them all to 50. (Finishing planets + Flashpoints is an Amidaia only requirement)
5. PVP Gear
6. Legacy of Crafting (350K) for Marilea (if others get crafting up, possibly eventually for them as well or at least Amidaia (Cybertech))
Total Cost: 3,700,000-5,125,000 Credits (not counting removal of mods for PVP or Legacy of Crafting for anyone other than Marilea), Lots of Warzone Commendations + Pain
QUATERNARY GOALS: If Makeb/level increase is coming out, those that are *’d will become Priority or Secondary Level.
Legacy of Sacrifice – 250K
Legacy Fleet Pass – 600K
Legacy Quick Travel – 600K *
Improved Rocket Boost – 2.5 million
Warzone Experience – 275K * if Valor 100 hasn’t been hit yet by the time level increasement happens
Flashpoint Experience – 275K * if new Flashpoints are released with level increasement.
Space Mission Experience – 150K * when new Space missions come out.
Story Experience – 275K * (If Makeb really does start Chapter 4)
Exploration Experience – 150K *
Outlaw’s Den (50K), Vanguard Fleet (50K), and Black Hole Travel Passes (150K) – 250K
Total: 5,175,000 Credits
All Race Unlocks (6 million. 7.5 million if I get impatient with Aurorra even though she is a Cyborg and will be level 50 eventually…)
Legacy of Altruism – 90K
Legacy of Persuasion – 90K
Speeder Training – 465K
Field Respecialization – 200K
Legacy of Leadership – 60K
Fully Gearing Companions (In order: Nadia, Qyzen, Tharan, Zenith, Iresso)
Total: 6,525,000 – 8,225,000 Credits
and you see why I stress. For now, I shall just go back to thinking of the Pet thing I want to do to get my mind off it all ignoring that I have no idea where to even get started on something like that…
So, today, after checking if the boxes were there or not (they are not), it was a “what should I do today” kind of day. I ended up helping some people with pets (and talking about the Wonderous Egg), getting my armorings (for just 500K! Yay!), and looking at the GTN. After that, I went and did some leveling on Roseria. She is level 12 now and on Coruscant.
I will probably do a bit of PVP with her as I need to get her 1,100 Warzone Commendations for her top and bottom.
After that, I was dragged to a HM EC by a friend which is… okayish I guess. Not going fantastic, but not horrible either. One guy seems to have issues with the circles though and one tank gets hit REALLY hard. I’m trying my best, but I just feel like a failure 🙁
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Alt Funds + Still sad
At the moment, I really don’t want to see my Sage or Sorcerer right now. I don’t want to run into anyone. This is stupid. I’m expected to give my choice today and to be honest, I shouldn’t be the one making this choice. In fact, the person who forced them to ask me is the one who needs to be spoken to.
As to lessen confusion, Person A is the one who made the “request”, Person B and C are the people who are allowing the “request”, and Person C said he would be one of the people who would quit if Person A did. What surprised me is Person C also said 3 others would quit with him and Person A, so I asked one of the 3 he mentioned and Person D responded he actually wouldn’t quit if Person A quit–though, he’d probably follow Person C and he only found out about an hour before I messaged him and really didn’t want to get involved. I just..this whole situation is a mess.
and now I’m making myself upset again, so let me get to the point of this… This is essentially how much I’d need to save before I can play each character. This is listed essentially in the order I want to play them.
1. Miisha – 1,500,000 for Twi’lek race so she can be pink and 465K for Max Class Experience, Max Exploration Experience, and Speeder Training Level 1 for a total of 1,965,000. Would like to get her this top at the very least, but not sure if I’d have her be in pants or a skirt.
2. Cellina – 465K for Max Class Experience, Max Exploration Experience, and Speeder Training Level 1. I like this skirt, but not sure about the top and also not sure if I want her in a skirt or pants yet. Also interested in the following tops: Synthmesh Battle, Black Talon Operative, and Terenthium Barrage. Not sure which I’d want though. I really like the design of the last one, but I have never been a big fan of the color yellow. seriously, why couldn’t you choose what to unify something to. …Honestly though, she’ll probably be in the same top as Miisha–just the Imperial version. I just…really like that top.
Note: I do not mind reversing the order of #3 and #4.
3. Zoara – 1,500,000 for Zabrak race so she can be pink and 465K for Max Class Experience, Max Exploration Experience, and Speeder Training Level 1 for a total of 1,965,000. Would wear this. Currently stuck on what to give her hairstyle-wise, however between these 3:
(special thanks to this video for me to screencap from)
Please only focus on the hair styles–not anything else.
4. Aurorra – 465K for Max Class Experience, Max Exploration Experience, and Speeder Training Level 1. I actually think she may be put in this or some combination of that and this.
5. Roseria * – 465K for Max Class Experience, Max Exploration Experience, and Speeder Training Level 1. I want her in The Force Evangelist Outfit. I believe it can gotten from the PVP Vendor so I may need to PVP with her for a bit which kind of stinks 🙁
And I may want to get Amidaia this top.
*She will mostly be played when playing with others so depending on how it goes (like if we actually get some of our friends to play), none of the experience boosts may be needed.
So, not counting outfit costs, that’s a total of 4,860,000 for just the first 4 characters. Counting Roseria, that’s an extra 465K so 5,325,000.
Now, these are characters that I just plan to rush through story-wise and get their Companions maxed out ASAP. They will then be deleted (Not to mention I can only have one at a time to begin with).
6. Jedi Knight – 465K for Max Class Experience, Max Exploration Experience, and Speeder Training Level 1 and 180K for Companion chatting + gifting boosts for a total of 645K.
7. Sith Warrior – 465K for Max Class Experience, Max Exploration Experience, and Speeder Training Level 1 and 180K for Companion chatting + gifting boosts for a total of 645K.
So the total for these 2 is 1,290,000. Including these two with the initial costs above, that’s 6,150,000-6,615,000.
And then what? + Event Rumors
I get asked this a lot. “So, when you collect all the pets, then what? Just wait for more?” It’s actually a very silly question as I’m a pretty goal oriented person and usually mention that I do have quite a few–just that Pets are my number 1 priority right now.
And what exactly would be all the pets? I believe I’ve stated there’s technically 20 pets confirmed and 24 pets in the game (of course, Beta pets are not counted in this as they are not out yet whatsoever–though, for those curious, it’d be 29 with Beta included).
To be honest, once I get the M0-GUL Thrall Droid, I’d essentially be satisfied as right now, there is no information on how to get the Wonderous/Wondrous Egg. That doesn’t mean I won’t stop trying to figure it out–of course I will! I will constantly keep trying, but I won’t feel frustrated or impatient that I haven’t gotten it yet as nobody has it yet. Nobody knows how to get it. It’s a mystery.
Getting Orochick as well as the M0-GUL Thrall Droid would essentially be the full goal as while I will still keep an eye out of the other 4 pets, they have not been confirmed and thus, I’d rather not drive myself crazy for something that may not even be enabled yet.
But then what would I do, you ask? Well, that’s simple. I’d save up for most of my other goals. For example, I still need 5 million credits for the Ship GTN. Not to mention 1 million more for Both Dummies (as they’re 500K each). After that, I’ll probably either put 2 million towards Rocket Boots, 200K towards the Field Respec, and the 3 million for the Twi’lek and Zabrak races. Though, if I do level up Roseria, I may just need 1.5 million then. Main issue is I do not know how I’ll do leveling up a sage again. However, if my boyfriend and I can get some of our friends to join, I may just try and deal.
After that, it’s a bit of a tie. Besides working on other characters, I’d like to get each (Minus Amidaia and Marilea for obvious reasons) the full Class Experience Boost Perks (275K) and full Exploration Experience Boost Perks (150K) which would be 425K per character (5 other characters = 2,125,000). …I’d also probably have to get it for the being rushed through Jedi Knight and Sith Warrior characters I will be making (that will just be deleted after I get the Companion and Chapter stuff) as they need to at least hit the requirement for Quesh so they can get the shot as to not die instantly 😛 But I’d also like to work on my Mount collection.
Right now, I still need:
Kurtob Alliance – Need to refer a friend who buys one month.
Aratech Coral – Need to still defeat Nightmare Pilgrim x3 😐
Aratech Nightscythe – Need to do HM EC
Aratech Scythe – 225K at Fleet Vendor or Speeder Vendor on Voss
Aratech Lancer – 175K from Speeder Vendor on Voss
Aratech Dagger – 55K from Quesh Speeder Vendor
Czerka Invader – 25K from Quesh Speeder Vendor
Czerka Cruiser – 8K from Alderaan/Tatooine Speeder Vendor
Desler Turbo – Drops from Karagga in KP Hard/Nightmare
Exchange Bandit – Security Vendor for 1.5 million
Gurian Shadow – From Blearg at Outlaw’s Den for 150K
Gurian Cyclone – From Jo’dath at Outlaw’s Den for 175K
Gurian Scoprion – From Imperial Fleet or Alderaan for 25K (must buy on Amidaia)
Korrealis Prince – From Imperial PVP Vendor on Fleet. Technically, a friend got me one 🙁 stupid bound-ness.
Lhosan Thunderbolt – 200 Daily Commendations or dropped off last boss in LI HM
Lhosan Torch – Purchased from Speeder Vendor on Voss for 150K
Lhosan Stinger – 150K from Speeder Vendor on Voss
Lhosan Duster – 25K from Fleet Speeder Vendor
Lhosan Racer – Quesh Vehicle Vendor for 25K
Longspur Blaze – 200 Daily Commendations
Orlean Flurry – 25K from Hoth Social Vendor
Orlean Rebel – 8K from Alderaan/Tatooine
Paraxon Bloodline – Dropped from HM EC
Paraxon Aero – From Light Sider Vendor on Fleet for 300K
Rendili Outrider – 25K from Quesh Speeder vendor
Rendili Protector – 8K from Alderaan/Tatooine
Tirsa Elite – Either last boss of Kaon HM, EV Normal, or KP Normal
Ubrikkian Raider – 150K on Voss
Ubrikkian Hunter – 25K on Fleet
Ubrikkian Striker – 8K on Tatooine/Alderaan
Ubrikkian War-rider – 1,000 Ranked Warzone Commendations and Rank 2200 in Ranked Warzones
Hotrigged Speeder Bike – Made by Cybertech
So, that’s a grand total of 2,953,000 Credits, 1,000 Ranked Warzone Commendations, and 400 Daily Commendations. Plus get Amidaia’s Cybertech up 😛
But of course, then what? Still easy. I’d like to just unlock everything Legacy-wise for Mari–including stuff she doesn’t need. Would also be tempted to get all the Companion Affection stuff on all my other characters (including Amidaia).
And after that? There’s nothing wrong with saving up credits and commendations for the future now, is there?
Besides that, there are rumors of the Event starting today. It doesn’t look like it is though, but maybe this weekend?
(for the record, it’d be about 16,300,000 to get Marilea all the speeders, all the 1.3 Legacy stuff, the Twi’lek and Zabrak races, Rocket Boots, and the Ship Legacy Unlocks. An extra 6 million would need to be added if I ever tried to unlock all the species, an extra 3,950,000 for the rest of the 1.2 stuff (Dark Side Ability, Rocket Boots/Quick Travel/Fleet Pass Cooldowns), an extra 2,970,000 to get every future character I make all 5 Ranks of Class and Exploration Experience Boosts, Level 1 of Improved Speeder Piloting, and all the Companion Affection Boosts… well, I can probably minus 180K (making it 2,790,000) as I don’t really need the companion stuff on Roseria. For a grand total of 23,040,000… this is why I’m trying to get like 25 million. …too bad it probably won’t happen.
So, I will admit, I really like this outfit–almost as much as the Elegant Outfit. I’ve been wanting to use it in some way for a long time, but haven’t been able to think of one. It finally hit me though–I wanted to change into something else for my PVP Gear. I had been thinking of doing another Elegant Outfit, but realized how confusing that could be and I really do not care much for the look of the PVP clothing, so why not use the Consular’s Exalted? (Which means I’ll probably put Roseria in the Force Evangelist outfit like I originally planned)
…of course, it’s incredibly expensive. While I do not plan to get all of it, the parts I do want are as follows:
Consular’s Exalted Headgear – 250,000 (though, honestly, I really don’t care what headgear I get as it’s hidden so I may either just keep the PVP Headgear or get another circlet, though different then the one I am using for my main outfit)
Consular’s Exalted Robe – 250,000
Consular’s Exalted Gloves – 150,000
Consular’s Exalted Lower Robes – 200,000
Consular’s Exalted Boots – 150,000
So… 750K to a million (probably 750K–will most likely just get another circlet)
Not to mention I’d probably want to get Augments so that’s… 5 more Augment Kits (125K) and 5 more Advanced Resolve Augment 22.
…and cost of removing mods and enhancements and stuff… *cries*
Feeling unlucky, Leveling, HK, + Roseria
So, my guild being awesome went and finished Karagga’s Palace normal. Unfortunately, still no pet drop. :/ Which sucks. While I know the pets aren’t common, it seems ridiculous how much we’ve run them… this, Lost Island, and killing Gargath and just nothing. It’s just super depressing. And when you see someone come out of their first run with their brand new pet… it hurts .__.
Anyway, I am hoping to get back to leveling Amidaia soon. Especially as apparently HK-51 may need multiple characters (I feel bad for people who really don’t level other characters much like me. It seems I got lucky for this at least) considering hints to having a level 50 character on one faction and at least mid level on another. I don’t know if I’ll want to get HK on anyone besides Marilea, but if I do, probably just Amidaia. I mean, maybe the rest eventually, but not priority at all other than my main on each faction.
For now, I re-made Roseria, my test character, on Corellian Run. I will be making her DPS, but I honestly can’t decide if I should make her a sage or a shadow. I am leaning towards Sage as while Shadows can, well, sneak, I really prefer ranged combat and Shadows are a bit more up close and person. I’ll probably dress her either in Consulars Exalted or Force Evangelist and with a green color crystal.
Despite being away in Florida for work again, I did find some time to pop online while there and try out the game on my laptop. In general, it tends to work a lot better (definitely loads better and I’ve been getting new kinds of lag spikes on my computer which are incredibly annoying), but I definitely need to get used to the controls and bigger screen. As it is, it seems my interface is a bit glitchy on my computer lately as well which is all kinds of annoying.
Moving on, I got to raid with my guild a bit a few days ago. We did Normal EV to get rid of the daily, a complete HM Karagga (But still no Pet drop! At least I finally have all the HM codexes there) and then yesterday a complete run of Normal Explosive Conflict. We (as in the group I am in) may even do HM soon which I’m more than a little nervous about.
EC makes me very nervous. As it is, I almost screwed up the entire raid on the tanks due to:
1. Not realizing they wanted me on the inside of the lightning tank.
2. Not realizing I could run through the actual tank.
Once I realized though (and re-fixed my camera), we did it perfectly fine. But I’m still worried about positioning and stuff with the first boss when it comes to HM after what happened last time.
Also managed to go to Gargath with a random group which was nice… no pet there either but of course now he keeps dropping the Ice Scrabbler Schematic 😐 spite I tell you.
As for the PTS, I’ve done about 5 runs with Group Finder. Have gotten Hammer Station everytime though (using my lower level character as then it doesn’t matter if I get healing or DPS).
PVP also went okay today. Ups and downs but had a really good (and close match) earlier that ended with us winning while we had 2% left in Novare Coast. Was super suspenseful and action packed and just kind of awesome.
I just wish I could get the pets already. With 1.3 so close, I’m feeling more stressed out by the second. On the bright side, I officially have enough for one of the pets when 1.3 comes (and halfway to the other–will need to re-earn 2K normal Warzone commendations essentially). Now if I could just refer a friend who would actually get the game v-v And actually earn a good amount of credits. Out of stims and can’t afford to buy more. Most of my money is going to repairs (Though, usually I won’t have too much more than the Guild Funds I can use. I just sometimes forget to use the Guild Funds), stims, companion gifts, and random oter things. v-v
For now, back to the Test Server.