Archive | June 29, 2012

Probably what I needed

Jun29

After my last entry, it was pretty interesting that I received a whisper about Lost Island shortly after. They asked if I was DPS in which I replied I wasn’t and could not really go DPS spec and wasn’t familiar with it. To my surprise, they responded saying they could switch to DPS if I wanted to heal and asked what my condition was (I had put Lost Island HM (1 Condition) as my LFG thing because if it happened again, I’d rather not think of what would happen if it did…and I do know some of my guildmates (heck, even my boyfriend) do really want it too and probably wouldn’t pass). They said it was no issue and thus, the group was made.

And we finished in roughly 20 minutes (a little less–probably would’ve been even lesser, but despite making it so we could skip the Rhino, they decided to do it for the heck of it). I died once (My fault–lagged when the guy was doing his smash. Apologized repeatedly.) and that was it–they even still beat the guy despite the fact I died. The tank died at the end once (I resurrected him very quickly though and kept everyone else up so we didn’t wipe. Not sure what made his health drop so fast), but in general, everyone lived and did fine. We had 2 Sages (myself and one DPS) and 2 Knights (Guardian Tank and Sentinel DPS–the Sentinel being who the person who whispered me switched to) and despite the extra Melee, that was probably the most painless Robot attempt I’ve done. Nobody died, everyone was usually at full health (few instances where I got out of range so some people’s health would drop a bit then), and it just went really well. I mean, people’s health bars were usually above 70-80% for the most part. Usually never less than 50% except on the rare occasion. Heck, I only had force problems once or twice too.

I don’t know what they did differently. It didn’t feel much different than other runs other than going a bazillion times faster and less death (which there were only 2 and neither caused a wipe). I’m not sure what gear they had either, but it was just…surprising and ridiculous and painless. And I even got a message from the Sentinel-healer-person that they would love to run it with me again (unfortunately, I couldn’t respond before they had to go, but I did send them mail!) and I probably needed that as it made me feel like maybe I’m not such a failure after all.

Now if the pet dropped too, I think that would’ve been a miracle. But despite the fact that it didn’t, I feel a lot more okay now.

In a slightly more down note, My computer probably desperately needs an update. Despite having turned everything down to the lowest settings (due to some lag issues), I was still lagging steadily throughout the robot boss and random parts after. Even running through the fleet, with everything as low as possible, I am having issues. Unfortunately, I can’t upgrade it yet (I can’t afford to)–but I really can’t always play on my laptop either 🙁 Just not sure what to do in the meantime.

Busy Days Ahead

Jun29

So, yesterday, I really didn’t get much done. Besides still being upset (and honestly, I probably will continue to be until another drops and I actually win it this time), I just felt pretty sucky and it wasn’t a great day yesterday. I only managed to do Lost Island once and if you couldn’t guess, no luck. At all.

Being up this early, I have already queued myself for Group Finder. I am nervous about a group as there is a chance I’ll get a bad one and I really can’t afford the repair costs. Similarly, there is a chance someone will roll again and I will lose again and I’m not sure how many times I can deal with that before I give up altogether and the only chance of me getting it would be someone else running it for me (for the record, there is nobody else as my boyfriend as no idea how to play a healer and I wouldn’t trust someone to go on my account unless they were sitting in my chair and I can watch them and nobody else I know in RL plays this game :D).

It was almost like having a game and getting to the ending. The best ending. You’re about to win when either:
A. You need to save and quit because you have to take care of stuff.
or
B. Someone unplugs it/black out.

If you picked A, then one of the following happens: Someone comes and accidentally saves over your game or the system eats the data.

For the record, I have had these things happen to me. Now, I have been over my hate for repeating things. However, when I do something and then lose all my progress? That goes into a realm even further of my hate for repeating things.

That is how I feel about what happened with Lost Island. Yes, it’s random, there is a chance I could’ve lost regardless. Part of what makes it feel this way is why–that reason. And honestly, I’d probably still be upset (though, not as frustrated) if I just lost.

So, why is this so much different and why would I still be upset, you may ask? I hate Lost Island. No, not like how I hate dailies. With dailies, it’s more that I hate repetition. I hate how they are done. I do not necessarily have this much issue with the actual quests (with the exception of Belsavis’–but with their changes, it’s mostly just bad memories now).

I am not a fan of Lost Island or Kaon Under Siege. I dislike zombies (though, the actual appearance of most Rakghouls and Nekghouls doesn’t bother me so much–the infected humans and transformations are really what creep me out) and Kaon is like a horror movie (I don’t watch horror movies). While Kaon’s environment and the various mobs bothers me, the actual bosses aren’t too bad (with the exception of the first “boss” but that is due to it being endless mobs).

Lost Island, however, I hate the bosses. Some of the Rakghouls go into creepy territory as well and there’s also some of the creepy humans. But not just that, I am personally uncomfortable with it. It is something I still, regardless of how many times I have finished it, feel like I am not good enough to be able to do it.

1. Mini Boss 1 – okayish I guess.
2. Boss 1 – Hits super hard. Very nerve-wracking.
3. Giant Robot of Doom. No further explanations needed.
4. Mini Boss 2 – Rhino guy. Hits hard with certain attacks and it’s random who he decides to hit. If not taken down fast enough, can be a problem trying to get everyone quickly healed back up.
5. Lava Pit boss – While his on the ground phase isn’t horrible (stay behind him and run inbetween his legs when he is going to smash), his pipe phase sucks. A healer may just need to heal in the middle, but those stupid rotting balls he throws at everyone hurts. Just a few of those things and you can be down half way or further. With the Noble Sacrifice nerfs, if he targets you quite a bit, it may not be long before everyone else manages to fall and that sucks and just really doesn’t help. If it wasn’t for those stupid balls (or the fact that they are targeted randomly), it probably wouldn’t be so bad of a fight. At this point, my faith is just in everyone getting him down ASAP and him mostly targeting the same person or the whole thing can come crashing down and it’ll be all my fault.
6. Finally, the final boss. He’s…not so bad once you learn the fight. Main issue is if the people you are with are all over instead of taking a path. Also, while the Raghoul virus grenade things can be cleansed, they can stack quite a bit. As long as you have good DPS though (and again, a good path to move in and people not staying too far–can’t heal you if you’re on the other side of the room), it’s not so bad anymore. …other than his transformation thing which bothers me personally due to previously expressed fears.

I’m not saying it should be on easy mode–I’m just saying it makes me nervous (though, the robot boss could use some nerfing to be honest). And due to my issues with zombies, I personally have problems with the flashpoint. And that is part of what bothers me so much. I was that close to not having to do it again (unless someone really needed a healer and asked me to help them out) and lost because someone figured they’d lose anyway.

With Gargath, I don’t mind him so repeating him was okay. But I hate Lost Island. It scares me, it stresses me out, and it makes me incredibly uncomfortable and nervous. If I was going to have an anxiety attack from this game, this flashpoint would most likely be the cause of it. (that or something being removed that I haven’t saved up for yet)

And even though my stats* aren’t horrible… I just… I can’t put into words how much I hate this flash point. I really wish Midnight Raklings were tradeable so I’d never have to do this flashpoint again. I don’t think I can properly explain just how much I hate it, but I hope this is enough I guess.

*For those who are curious about my stats (as of 8:41AM on June 29th, 2012)…
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