Archive | July 24, 2012

EC SM done

Jul24

So, due to the craziness mentioned below, we ended up doing SM while the other group did HM. I don’t really want to talk much about it. I feel like crud (physically) and just don’t want to think too much about stuff since I’m honestly still pretty upset. They did, however, apparently get the first two bosses down |Edit: they lied and apparently only got the first boss down| so I’m waiting for our other healer to shove it in my face or something because everything is my fault for being full of suck.

In the meantime, I helped my boyfriend set up his Mr. Robot page, though the wish list has barely been started/set up just yet. Shall try and look things up and hopefully we can get him more gear because feeling like it’s still both of our faults sucks. :/

Besides that, I did my first 7K heal today which was nice.

…unfortunately, the cheering up didn’t last long .-.

A post from a bus

Jul24

So, we are currently on the way back from the hotel. The raid started about 10 minutes ago and they said they would wait up to 20 for us but we shall see.

I ‘m still feeling pretty iffy (see last several updates) so I’m not sure how I feel yet.

On the…kind of bright side (yay for always, bleh for more competition), apparently Campaign isn’t class specific when it drops! So, if we clear it 8 times (2 months) everyone will be geared minus boots which are gotten from Nightmare Pilgrim.

…I wish I felt last sucky.

Edit: So, got here 10 minutes late…was accused of being 30 minutes late despite the fact that we were told we’d have 20 minutes leeway, not really sure what the heck is going on (We’re apparently short healers for some reason?), one of the tanks in the other group still hates me (so yes, I have at least two, if not 3, people in the guild who have issues with me) so our second in command’s plan (which I said wouldn’t work) of me healing the other group obviously failed.

anyway, it looks like one healer couldn’t make it so a healer in the other group went on their sage while the healer who hates me in our group will be healing their group while a healer they could’ve brought in (the one who replaced me that I mentioned) is in ours since the other group had issues with her. *confused for life*

what really bothers me is how annoyed it seemed they were at me when I said there’d be an issue, I e-mailed several times, and they weren’t even ready to go besides just us.

Resolved for Now

Jul24

So, for now, we will stay in guild and see what happens. We can’t be told about specifics of things (Like the conversation between Person A, B, and C) which doesn’t help considering it involves us.

Some things that were said were also kind of hurtful and confusing so I’m a bit lost? Regardless, while I do like most of the people in the guild, things will be uncomfortable for a while (if not permanently).

The compromise was I have to stay in this god-awful outfit, but as I earn Campaign (you better lose single person I’m rolling again *HOPES FOR ALL CONSULAR GEAR* there’s only a 25% chance though 🙁 ), I can fade it out. Also, I’m not allowed to complain whatsoever except to Ivan and my boyfriend and only in private whispers and not at all during raid. I really didn’t full on complain though–just offhand stuff. :/ And a bit brought up about me getting upset when I was replaced because I was late a few minutes and people knew I had to run to the store… and I got back before the person I was replaced with even arrived. It’s not like I openly yelled about it–I was a bit passive-aggressive at times, but I still answered any questions and was silent for the most part. And I suppose being a girl made being replaced by another female sage fairly awkward. (and of course, not being able to defend myself despite it being brought up isn’t fair either)

Overall, I guess I still feel singled out and bothered. Not to mention hated by at least one member of our raid team.

Gonna try and help my boyfriend with his gear though for now and just try and cheer up. but just…bleh.

On the bright side, it’s better than the last “resolution” with our first guild…or at least seemed that way.

To try and end this on a happy note, an updated WIP by the awesome Sakonma: