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May8

So, if you read the forum, you’ll know the current aimed dates are May 14th for 2.1 and June 11th for 2.2.

I didn’t expect 2.1 to be so soon @-@ So I’m pretty excited about that. However, I really hope we won’t see another Cartel pack. I mean, it’s likely we will since it’s kind of a cartel coin update, but I feel there will be enough to spend Cartel Coins on without that added factor X__x now if the stores around here would actually start carrying the cards… ._. (Pets T~T)

The Gree event should also show up inbetween the two… maybe I can finally get the other pet… but I don’t know if I could deal with the repetition and PVP still makes me sad. v-v

June 11th doesn’t surprise me TOO much. That is also the day E3 starts and I’m guessing it’ll be mentioned there (lucky people going to E3 *envies*) plus be a good thing to bring up.

A lot of people think the game is dying or it’s not very good and that’s really really silly (also comparing to WoW is silly in itself because WoW copied many things from other games too–like the stuff that makes an MMO an MMO in the first place). Due to not feeling too great lately, my sleeping has been a mess–so I have been playing at quite odd times. Despite that, I can find up to about 150 people and multiple instances on some of the lower level planets and people chatting away. The game isn’t perfect, no, but I’ve never played a game that didn’t have its flaws.

If I had to pick one flaw (and let’s be honest, there’s a bunch I have–like with the reputation system or my problem with set bonuses and how they work and etc.), I would mostly say it’s with raiding.

Not everyone wants to be in a guild. After three bad experiences, I just… I don’t want to be in a guild ever again, to be blunt. And yes, Netto, Telanis, I know your doors are always opened 😛 I honestly just don’t want to do it anymore though. I had my very first MMO ruined due to guild drama along with 3 friendships that will never heal. And while some people have stayed friends with me despite these guild dramas in recent time, I’d be lying if I said everything was okay because it’s not. And there’s always so many lies–so many lies on why someone left or what they were trying to do or how they did this or that. The funny part is, I was never needed in any of those–I was always a back-up and a last resort. So if something went wrong suddenly due to my leaving, I will tell you right now–it wasn’t my fault.

So, unsurprisingly, I’m more content playing with my boyfriend and some friends. Of course, you can’t do raids with 4 people (unless you get super overleveled or something and even then, certain puzzles would definitely have a problem).

But that isn’t my biggest issue either–it’s that in a story-based game, you can not access that story without a guild. I mean, recently (with the really strange gear changed), EV ad KP were just kicked off group-finder… this is a story-based game. They have story elements in them that take place before the current content. You can’t just write them off.

And people who play for the story can’t just go and do them and that stinks. This is the first game to ever make me create characters to not be just item mules. Why? Because the story interested me. I was able to create characters and this world they live in and when it comes down to it, the only one who can (and I would) raid on is my sage. But I wish I could still access that story. I wish I could see it. But I have no interest in running some crazy raid ops and doing dailies and other junk on my other 6 characters (Speederisk and Speederisk2 don’t count).

I also hate that vanity items have only been dropping on HM or higher only. Story mode is essentially for those who want to witness the story (although, you still need to find 7 people for it -_-), but I am unable to collect them all without actually raiding on harder modes and even then, it’s a lovely luck of the draw. It just really stinks. People who are doing it on harder modes are usually doing it for gear in the first place :/ so yeah, there’s my other complaint on raids.

But since I mentioned story, I guess I will mention my other big complaint during the leveling process… I’ve seen all the planet quests. Every side quest and every main quest. I do not want to do them again. And no matter how many experience boosts I buy, I will never be able to play just the class story and that’s super disappointing. They just don’t give enough experience. All 5 class story boosts, all 5 exploration boosts, and a major experience boost plus tons of rested experience just… it doesn’t do that much. You will be levels behind and get to a point where you can’t even continue without help or backtracking to do other quests and that really stinks.

So yeah, despite those isues, I do enjoy the game–it’s why I still play it, afterall. Anyway, shall be looking forward to the next patch.

Developer Blog, Guilds, KP, and Jokes

Jan3

Lots to talk about in this entry! Some good, some bad… I’ll once again probably not talk in order.

Did a random KP story mode with Prongs and Tourch. It…didn’t go as well as it could have, but it wasn’t horrible. I ended up doing some of the puzzle by myself while occasionally throwing down heals and a battle resurrection @-@ But we got through it and the helmet dropped! And Tourch was nice and gave it to me 😀 So now I have it. I also got 2 new schematics <3 I'm also now only 30 Black Hole Commendations away from being able to get my other implant @-@ Moving on, there is a new developer’s blog! It talks about some of Makeb’s upcoming stuff so as usual, thinks I am excited about :3

We’ve got new Operations, new Flashpoints, new difficulty modes, new PvP areas, and of course, the entire Digital Expansion: Rise of the Hutt Cartel (which is targeted at our high level players).

Which would be more exciting if I didn’t still have so much to do 😀 I would say I probably dislike the new difficulty modes thing the most as I really hate how the difficulty modes work to begin with. I already hate doing a flashpoint/operation more than once, do I really need to do it on different difficulties too? X__x Although, it probably just means NM TfB.

Overall, we’re aiming to introduce a more diverse array of activities – more stuff to do with your Companion, more challenges to tackle with groups, and more reasons for guilds to recruit. We’ll also be improving our itemization, introducing new incentives to revisit existing areas, and a lot of other exciting things that will be revealed as we move through the upcoming year.

I just hope it’s not big groups. Those are always a pain to get together *STARES AT EMPTY DREADTOOTH RESEARCH* 😐 I don’t really understand itemization much, but I’m always up for new quests and more lore objects and things.

I think you will see (fairly soon) the answer to this question in the game itself – something big is coming to the Western Ice Shelf, but it’s quite a departure from what was there before.

This makes me think the possible World Event on Ilum is still happening and still planned for sometime this month.

You should expect to see this come within the first part of this year. It will provide free character copies to PTS at any time (with possible restrictions dependent upon our testing needs at any given time).

Yay 😀

I want to reveal today that we are adding SGR with some NPCs on Makeb and do intend on pursuing more SGR options in the future.

^This should also make many people happy.

But yes, regardless, I am quite excited for upcoming things! Just… wish it was on better terms.

As a lot of people know, I am once again guildless. Mar-gon left so my leaving shouldn’t be a surprise. In general, certain things just made us quite upset. No matter how mad you are at someone or how much you may dislike someone, that’s just…never a reason. Ever 🙁 And… giving me ultimatums isn’t nice either ._.

Overall, I’m pretty down about it and I just…wish guilds weren’t so important sometimes. Not to mention it makes things iffy, even with friends. There’s several people I can think of, who even if I’ve run into them and things have been fine, I’m just too shy to contact and then it eventually just doesn’t happen. There is no talking. I miss a lot of people due to that and it makes me sad that list is going to grow.

Finally, I’m a serious person. I get my feelings hurt easily, especially more so on days when I’m not feeling well or already in a bit of a down mood. I can’t tell when people are being sarcastic–I’m really dense with that. And if I say stop and you continue, it’s not funny. It never was funny. You’re just being a jerk.

And yet I end up feeling bad for not getting the joke. And when it comes down to it, I really really shouldn’t.

But that seems to be the trend. Because I’m naive and shy and serious, I should feel bad for not finding a joke funny or sticking to my morals, or being too shy to say something, or not wanting to have nightmares all night. And that really isn’t true…the person who should feel bad is the one who can’t respect how another person feels and has to make them feel like crud for existing.

That’s what is really sad.

Not helping the situation

Aug28

I’m…really sick of the guild drama. I am not an idiot for feeling different ways about progress. Nor am I an idiot for focusing on the only point you brought up in return. You can add in other elements all you want, but based off the only thing you said at that time, my scenario is also perfectly in line.

Just…stop being such a jerk.

Not how you greet someone

Aug22

So, I was talking to one of the guildmates who I still feel I’m on good terms with more or less. I asked him how the guild said their HM run went today. He told me they did 1/4 and if I wanted to know more, I could always hop on Mumble and ask our Guild Leader. Due to the fact that I have been feeling…pretty iffy about all this, I said that I really didn’t need to know more and I wouldn’t want to bother.

He responded saying they’re just PVPing and I wouldn’t be a bother at all. Considering how he was one of the few people who said he’d miss me if I quit as I brought something different to the guild, I decided to pop into Mumble for him. He greeted me with a “Hello” and a “How are you?” which was really nice. I answered and was interrupted then by our guild leader asking if my schedule was going to be less floaty soon. I responded that it depends on how my mom’s visit upstate goes. He responded saying how in 2 weeks he’s hoping to do 16-man EC and that he’ll be incredibly critical of me because I’ve done it before.

I responded that I had only done 16-man HM (though, I have done the 1st boss of 16-man EC normal) and he responded that he meant HM so I mentioned I hadn’t completed 8-man HM so I wouldn’t know how to compare it and he pretty much shrugged that off. He then went on to say how two weeks ago, if they had their 3 top DPS, they probably could’ve went all the way and how every other DPS were levels below those 3 and that whenever they had to use one it was “tricky” to figure out what to do.

…so…. I get on Mumble for the first time in weeks for most of you (I was on it late the other night talking to 2 friends and helping them with the event), I get a greeting from one person and I am pretty much told how all this pressure is on me for 16-man HM EC, everything will be my fault if it gets screwed up, and that all your other DPS suck in comparison to your prime 3? Are you serious?

What a wonderful new greeting. I should keep that in mind. -_-

anyway, if I wasn’t upset before, I now feel even more own in the dumps. This is just…ugh.

HM EC Cleared!

Aug10

I didn’t get any more loot and the speeder didn’t drop (also, no need revelations on the Wonderous Egg), but I’m just so happy to say I’ve done it (on 16-man no less) and have new codexes! And the Aractech Nightscythe :3

I kind of wish I didn’t have to do HM EC anymore, but unfortunately, I still need gear (and the speeder) 🙁 It’s just been so drama-filled, EC has been kind of ruined for me. And of course, the 4 items I need are from the last two bosses X-x

Also still need the boots from Nightmare Pilgrim…and have to defeat him 2 more times anyway. Let’s hope I get the boots in one of those two tries so I never have to see him again either.

Our GM found out–I’m not sure if he was in disbelief or not that I healed through or whatnot :/ But it makes me feel a little awkward. Regardless, I still don’t know if I’d do it if they asked me to…as much as I need gear, I’m still hurt.

At least nice words from the GM in the guild I was running with and one of the healers gave me some of my confidence back. But I still can’t help but feel paranoid 🙁

What To Do

Aug9

So, recently, it hit me exactly what day today is. It is Thursday which is our new EC Normal Day due to the HM run being on Tuesday (as Reaper can’t run Thursdays).

I…don’t really want to go. Of course, I still feel loyal to the guild, but I am just so frustrated. I don’t really care about having things on farm. We’re not helping anyone with this run (nobody needs anything). We’re just doing it. Why? To remember that we were kicked from the HM group? And considering last week we only managed to get 2/4 (due to several changes), I don’t want to go again. I just don’t.

One person already went Hiatus from Raiding. I can’t help but wonder if it is partially due to this.

But, to make things more difficult, as you know, I went and raided a HM 16-man EC run (And I have to say I love 16-man as it really helps me learn the positioning of a fight) and due to the glitch with Mine-guy, we could not finish…they did, however, fix the glitch and so I have been invited to finish it up and get my final two codexes–plus my Aratech Midnight.

I am inclined to go with that as:
1. I hate leaving things undone. Seriously.
2. It was a raid with a lot of people I knew from outside the guild who I happened to be friends with.
3. It was actually fun–sometime I haven’t felt since all the HM EC stuff in our guild.
4. It will finish off almost all my codexes. I’d only need Nightmare KP ones (the title included) and then the rest are just glitched.

Of course, regardless of which I’ll pick, I will feel bad. As it is, my boyfriend isn’t feeling too well regardless (and is beyond pissed off with the whole situation) so he will most likely not be raiding tonight. I actually do have to bake cookies with my sister (once again I have been volunteered to make cookies for people 😐 ) so I may not even be on for the EC Normal raid which starts at 8. I should be on by 8:50 though, when the EC HM raid starts (and this is why I can’t just do both).

I also just…don’t feel wanted? I mean, when the person who you originally thought hated you (later learned he just has a kind of dry sarcasm) seems to be the only one who cares about you being there or staying, there is something wrong. Or you know, if you mention not being on due to being in a car accident and get only responded to by that same person while after a pause, the other people just go back to talking about some concert or show they saw. Thanks for the concern, guys.

In the meantime, I’ve been getting even more focused on gear. This is because I just want to get out of this outfit so badly (unfortunately, I only have like 400K so not sure if I can afford too as while other stuff was lowered to like 25K, Campaign/26 stuff is 30K :|) and I’m so pissed off with them right now and just want to show I don’t suck. And it wasn’t my fault. No, I don’t know or care how your other two healers are doing it, but apparently you’re just scraping by and it seems to be luck as it still takes several goes. I think the only operation boss I’ve always seen take several goes are the two tanks in EC just because of how much precision is needed. One single lag spike could kill everyone.

The Campaign chest and gloves drop from Mine-guy while the Main-hand and Helm drop from Kephess. At the very least, I really hope I can get the chest. Then I’d at least have the chest and pants and it wouldn’t be so horrible. I would say after that, I’d really want the gloves because giant pads on the gloves are just awkward. Of course, I’d love all 4, but I’d feel like a jerk unless nobody needed them. And I still need the boots from Nightmare Pilgrim, but I have to do him 2 more times anyway for the Aratech Coral. Still, hopefully then I will never see him again. He’s not so bad for a Healer though–just need to heal A LOT and avoid circles. It’s really mostly the DPS who need to make sure they listen so they don’t kill themselves.

Going back to more gear specific stuff, I actually saw 3 Advanced Mettle Mod 26 yesterday T__T They were about 500K each and thus, I couldn’t afford any of them. Not to mention 1.5 million is also how much I’d need to make Zoara (which I really want to–I hate having a slot just filled up for no reason. I want to get her made the way she is supposed to be) or I could get the two Ship Dummies with 500K to spare. And yes, Ship Legacy stuff is still super priority to me! But I’m no where close to ever having 5 million for a GTN 🙁 let alone the 1 million for the Dummies (which are probably the lowest priority). Not to mention I still need like 200K-300K for Miisha’s exp. stuff :/ (and I still need to get Amidaia to 50 already! And get all her companions up ._.)

Getting back to my original subject… unfortunately, when I checked this afternoon (though, still can’t afford it), all 3 were gone 🙁 I really should’ve seen if someone could loan me credits considering how rare it seems to be that a Mettle Mod 26 shows up in the first place (I’ve seen plenty of 25’s and many 26B’s and some 26A’s but just 26 is a foreign concept).

Overall though, I still need quite a bit–even though I have been prioritizing the mods. So, list time:
Hat: Campaign Headgear Armoring
Top: Campaign Vestments Armoring, Advanced Mettle Mod 26, Advanced Quick Savant Enhancement 26 (375K-500K. I could afford one right now, but it’d be all my money 🙁 )
Gloves: Campaign Gloves Armoring
Bracers: Advanced Resolve Armoring 26 (None for sale right now, but usually 2 million v-v)
Belt: Advanced Resolve Armoring 26 (see above)
Skirt/Pants: Advanced Mettle Mod 26
Boots: Campaign Boots Armoring, Advanced Mettle Mod 26
Main Hand: Advanced Resolve Hilt 26 (Campaign Main Hand), Advanced Quick Savant Enhancement 26 (See Top.)

So, I need 2 Advanced Resolve Armoring 26, 5 Campaign Drops for Armorings, 3 Advanced Mettle Mod 26, and 2 Advanced Quick Savant Enhancement 26 for a grand total of lots of emotional pain from EC HM and roughly 6.5 million credits. Lovely.

can I just have a pile of credits? please? ._. then I’d be able to finish all this junk and help my boyfriend get geared too and work on our alts so he can have more to go raid and just earning credits sucks. And while some people in our guild are starting to get these high mods, the whole making people pay for materials that everyone in the guild worked together to get really rubs me the wrong way :/ it may be cheaper (in some cases–though, I don’t believe they can make any of the ones I need ATM anyhow), but the principal of it bothers me too much.

In which I was right

Aug2

So, the HM Team is up and it is as I expected. The two Healers I expected (both of which don’t care for me), the Tank I expected (who hates me) and I am officially not even back up.

I’m mixed honestly. On the bright side, I don’t have to decline now if they ask. On the otherhand, for obvious reasons, I’m upset.

Thanks for forcing me to change my outfit for absolutely nothing now. Sorry all that work and trying was for nothing because apparently you can only be serious with a set bonus.

So much ugh.

Aug1

So, if last week’s run was bad, this week has managed to top it. About half of each raid group was missing so we ended up doing some mixing and matching and it just…wasn’t very good. Our other tank didn’t seem to know what they were doing a few times (and thus, at the tanks as they got out of my sight, it was totally my fault for not healing enough 😐 STILL CAN’T SEE THROUGH LOGS/TREES).

And after we got the tanks down (took us 2 hours to get to that point), when one of our DPS had to go, it was used as an excuse to stop…even though we had another DPS on who could come. So we just went to the chest for commendations and stopped since nobody else wanted to continue. And I just hate that attitude. Seriously.

As it is, most of my credits are now gone too thanks to repairs. It was just horrible.

Moving on, besides not feeling like an officer whatsoever (It seems it’s mostly the GM, the co-GM and then a officer who was supposed to be temporary who end up doing all the talking about junk), there is a “selective” HM EC group happening on Thursday.

I…hate that. I really don’t like Elitism at all. So, I already figured my boyfriend and I are not going. Eventually, as we may be heading down to VA on Thursday (most likely Friday, but maybe Thursday) and I was asked if I wanted to do a HM run by someone else due to us doing story mode today, I decided to ask.

The response? For my boyfriend, no. For me, I was one of the “unconfirmed” slots. Aka a maybe. And since they never asked me, that means:
1. Either they need to talk and see if anyone would mind (And I’m sure I can guess some of the people in the group and thus, who would mind)
and/or
2. They have better healers in mind and are waiting to hear back.

Even if I do get picked, just because I can tell I’m not really a definite choice and the fact that they kicked my boyfriend to the curb, I will probably decline it. I just…don’t like that. At all.

So maybe I’ll do HM with a different group on Thursday. If I do it at all. However, if I do, I just hope I don’t disappoint them.

Besides that, as expected with the news (see last entry), some people are just being obnoxious jerks. Including friends. Some are excited to play, others are kind of okay and are looking forward to playing just not with you and others are being complete buttheads. And that’s really what’s upsetting me.

That moment when you realized your guild did KP NM without you T___T

Jul30

I’m not really angry at anyone. Just sad. It’s not like we were in that long (though, we were in the first two EV NM groups) or anything.

It just sucks to know in that stupid horrible ride on Saturday, we missed KP NM. And they did both. At least we have everything with EV NM, but KP NM T___T codexes…

I kind of just want to cry. I just feel…really sad. And as it is, I believe we are busy Saturday so depending on when we get back…and the hotel internet may suck 🙁 I’m just getting more sad the more I think about this.